Fangirling, Chapters 25-38
So in this final week of the Reblog Book Club for Fangirl, I have been somewhat struggling to pull together my thoughts. For Chapters 1-12, my focus was more reliving some of my personal fandom moments and getting to experience that sense of newness that I had been missing when we saw glimpses of Simon Snow’s world (both real and fanfictional). Then in Chapters 13-24 I was more drawn to Cath’s social interactions and the development (both positive and negative) with the people around her. But for this final part of the book, I don’t know that I can express myself in a coherent essay. I keep seeing others posts saying something just real and deep and I’m like YEAH THAT’S IT THAT’S WHAT I AGREE WITH YES but I once again find myself returning to flailing bullet points.
- Ground rules with Reagan. I wish someone as efficient as Reagan would run every meeting I have to attend for the rest of my life.
- I think Cath’s definition of being a nerd as preferring fictional worlds to the real one rang true with me. I mean, I’m a Nerdfighter, so I’m all about the unironic enthusiasm and being made of awesome. But a huge part of that for me are the fictional worlds and characters I have grown up with and grown to love, and the fact that to this day I would drop my life to go to Hogwarts. I mean, Wren’s “Now I’m too sad to start smoking” line after realizing she’s too old for Watford is so reminiscent of my experience when I realized not only was I too old for Hogwarts but I couldn’t have gone anyway because I’m American.
- I didn’t realize pornographic eyebrows were a thing I was interested in until Levi. Also, I want a boy to drive me to Omaha. I have no desire to go to Omaha, but I am so on board with a cute boy driving me there.
- I felt a little weird at first during the “sweetheart” conversation and the laundry basket thing between Levi and Cath. But after a while I realized that they’re both people who are willing to understand the other’s side and are cut out to deal with that. Levi is extroverted and respectful and funny and doesn’t pressure her and stands up for people when he sees something wrong, and Cath is very much her own person who does things her own way and doesn’t want to interfere with other people’s things because she doesn’t want their interference. These are obviously very different places they’re coming from, but I think knowing how much they like learning about each other, they are going to come to a solid understanding of these different opinions and make it work.
- Also, I got really excited knowing that Levi likes 4H. I mean, it’s not surprising given his ranch management major, but I love seeing it. I mean, I wasn’t in 4H but I did spend a lot of time at a 4H camp, so I have an appreciation. Which is funny to me, though, because Cath’s version (hard, hip-hop, and homey-don’t-play-that) is like what I grew up with in the city.
- And I need to read this book with special glasses to shield myself from the cute.
- I cannot imagine going three months without talking to my sister. And I can’t imagine speaking to my mother for the first time in over a decade like that. And I can’t imagine any of my friends just leaving one of us at the hospital alone after drinking too much. My jaw was through the floor during that entire ordeal, even though I expected something like that to happen.
- That said, the serious conversation about Wren’s drinking turning into her grilling Cath about kissing a boy was terrifyingly reminiscent of every conversation between my little sister and I. And my heart swelled about three times it’s size when Wren started talking about Cath’s fanfic.
- Reagan is like the opposite of me when it comes to twins.
- "The punk rock way to end Carry On would be to let Baz and Simon live happily ever after."
- I feel like Nick got in way over his head by walking into a situation involving both Wren and Reagan. And Levi. I think it’s nice having people in your life who are ready to be offended on your behalf like that.
And those are pretty much the big things for me in those chapters. I haven’t really come to terms with the fact the book is over, and I’m fully expecting there to be more next week.
Because I need someone to tell me how Simon’s world ended (both “real” and for Magicath).